I have been home with a lot of intestinal nasties the past two days. I slept most of yesterday while my sweetheart used the car. When she asked if I needed her to pick up something from the store I asked for some homemade chicken soup and ginger ale.
She let me know she was on the way home and I slipped out to get her a Valentines Day gift. Conviently there are a bakery and a chocolate shop around the corner. I checked the bakery but they had closed so off to the chocalate shop I went with most of the black men in the neighborhood. I found my trusty debit card and got a nice pair of hearts. I slowly walked home and got back on the futon where I had been all day.
I gave her my gift and was somewhat surprised to learn that the Valentines day card I had seen over the weekend was for her grandson. I went to bed feeling a little sad. However this morning she showed me the card she had made for me saying I was loved. It was like what they say chicken soup for the heart.
I have struggled over the years with Valentines day including having a woman break up with me. Some small things lime this mean more as I grow older. I am listening to jazz, my intestines are returning to nrmal and thinking about being loved.
I enjoyed myself last night at the holiday party for a mental health organization.The party was held in the hotel also owned by the organization. This is a for profit business owned by a man who immigrated from Malawi, a landlocked country in southern Africa. The company has successful mental health and drug rehabilitation operations. But the most remarkable part of the company is the Days Inn located near 6th and Walnut. The hotel replaced a run down facility for people with developmental disabilities. The very modern website boasts of their conveniences and location near downtown. The building was filled with horny young white men last night. The staff is diverse, the beds are firm and the appetizers are fresh. Although I brought a dish not to be shared, the staff had prepared a feast with spicy Hispanic food.
I am thinking it might be a good place to have some of these mental health meetings instead of using Serb Hall, where I nearly froze my cojones in the restroom. The rooms were very reasonably priced and I witnessed a young woman from Illinois checking in with a friend and asking about where to get breakfast. When you go someplace other than where you might normally venture, you learn something new about Milwaukee. We are a city where many of those who are most in need to services can’t find people who look like us when we are most vulnerable.
I say, let’s look around and see what the barriers are to a culturally intentional mental health workforce. But we aren’t going to get there with meetings in which I am the only African-American male. Let’s include the black man who attended social work school with me at the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee and now works for the Center for Veterans Issues. Is there another black male peer support specialist? If so let’s find him and groom him to take over my role someday. And let’s not forget other peoples of color who have been missing from the discussion.
We need advocates who look and sound like the people for whom they are advocating. It’s not enough and nor is it appropriate to have all white staffs who look as though they were cut from the same mold. Spend a day and spend money with others and hear their stories. There is more. Come find us.
I am working on this year’s first vacation and I think it will include a wonderful organic farm not far from Milwaukee called Wellspring. Just the name itself sounds wonderful. My older sister received all of the farming genes from our mother. That freed me from years of dirt daubing. However, I did do a little work in a community garden when I lived on the east side of Milwaukee, which is known for its gardens. The site includes a youth hostel so it will be affordable. I t was always one of those places I heard about in meetings and put on my list of places to visit. Sort of like a bucket list only much cheerier.
Things to do before you have some incurable disease, although I’m certain I can find a snappier name. I also want to visit the Field Museum in Chicago, which is the incredibly huge and nearby. Perhaps I will take the train and leave the car at home. I got that part of the idea from an old friend. I would hate for anything to happen to the car while on a vacation and be stuck with the hassle of finding a replacement. I just got my notice to renew my license plates and the car runs very smoothly.
As for the museum, Illinois is always enticing us to visit since we’re right next door. A day or so among those ruffians who like trading last place with the Milwaukee Brewers will be long enough. I am hoping that their excitement from the Blackhawks winning the Stanley Cup will have died down.
Finally, two Milwaukee museums interest me, the Milwaukee Art Museum and the Betty Brinn Children’s Museum. The art museum has a wonderful exhibit of African-American artists and one of my Facebook friends Mutope Johnson has been promoting it. Because of my work schedule it is practically impossible for me to go see it without being on vacation. The children’s museum fascinated me because I was told it was unlike any other in that the museum was very experiential, a hand on type of thing. The commercials make it seem like so much fun, too. Betty Brinn is actually within walking distance of the art museum.
I will want to budget for buying art prints and a visit to some wonderful restaurant. It would be best to use one whole week but I also need to go see my family for Thanksgiving. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. I need to do some more planning. My family is too wonderful to stay away from for very long.
On Memorial Day I heard an interview with a man who had written a story about the most lethal sniper in America. As a peace activist I tend to avoid listening to these kinds of stories but yesterday, thinking about the sacrifices military men and women make for our country, I decided to sit and listen and I was richly rewarded.
Chris Kyle was a Navy Seal who was credited with killing more than 100 people during his military service. But arguably the most important work he undertook was in his civilian life working with veterans who had experienced post traumatic stress disorder. Nicholas Schmidle, a staff writer for the New Yorker, wrote a story about Chris Kyle including the tragic ending in which he was shot by a deeply troubled vet he was trying to assist.
Listening to the story about Chris Kyle was part of my attempt to understand the Iraq and Afghanistan wars. I also watched Democracy Now rebroadcast their story from last year’s veterans protest in Chicago outside the NATO meeting. I saw veterans ashamed of their military service returning their medals to the United States government. There was a powerful testimony from a mother whose son had killed himself on an American military base who was angry that the government had told the world he had died in combat. And I heard a song Hero of War about the horrors our government has told young men like Chris Kyle to inflict during our long occupations in Iraq and Afghanistan.
These stories are relevant during the ongoing debate over how much America needs to be involved in the destruction taking place in Syria. I hear about formerly middle class families sleeping in half bombed out buildings after fleeing their homes. I ponder questions of right and wrong, the President’s moral authority and whether and when solving our own problems at home will ever become important.
What are we really aiming at when we send snipers out? Who is the ultimate target of our drone attacks? When will we decide that the body count is high enough for us to be able to ceasefire? I urge my readers to ask yourselves these questions while you look into these stories that I have discussed.
I have enjoyed a year of paid holidays and you know I could really get used to this idea. I started working as a certified peer specialist in the first week of June 2012. That was shortly after the Memorial Day holiday. Later that week I was at the company retreat. Thus I did not enjoy my first paid holiday until several weeks later with the 4th of July. I still did not have a vehicle so my mobility was quite limited. And there were uncertainties about my living situation. I concerned that the honeymoon was ending with my landlord and things were about to spiral downward.
That’s not a good way to have a holiday. This year, I was able to call my family and learn that my mother was recuperating from minor surgery. I took a friend out to dinner Saturday. I bought a six-pack of Fat Tire beer, which is a locally produced Belgium ale, very delicious. And I enjoyed shopping for and eating delicious food. These are things that belong in a good holiday.
I reviewed the prospectus for my new IRA and listened to National Public Radio. One of the highlights of my day was during a trip to the grocery store. I spotted a very striking looking older African-American man sharply dressed and looking like he was in his early 60s. Later on, I found myself in line right behind him at the checkout line and started up a conversation. I learned that he was 75 years old and was very conscious about his style of clothing. “I may be old but that doesn’t mean I have to look old.”
And that’s exactly the point of aging gracefully and living life to the fullest. You have to work at creating a life worth living but the rewards can be very fulfilling. that’s what anyone, regardless of their age or physical or mental condition would want and it’s certainly what I’m striving to achieve.
I’m hoping to throw off my 1 or 2 devoted readers by using these odd titles for my blog entries. Obviously nobody would write a blog combining Memorial Day with smooth skin. Except a local oddball. Hah. These oddballs are always getting involved in stuff.
I sent my sister a David Sanborn cd last week so I called and asked her whether she had received it. Yes, it did arrive, and she has listened to it with our mother. However, the case was broken. I will add a little packing material with the next item I send her and mom. I told her that even though my hair is almost completely grey, many people believe I am much younger than my true age. This seems to be due to my very smooth skin. At times I go through periods where I am constantly using lotion but in reality the lotion just adds a lot of oil that I have to wipe away.
It appears that this is a family trait. I had trouble guessing my mother’s age because she always had the same smooth skin. I think this is a wonderful trait. I want to be as young as possible for as long as I can. There’s a woman at the First Unitarian Society who is as wrinkled as one can possibly be. When I saw her for the first time, I guessed she was well into her 80s.
I’m not sure what to make of this other than to enjoy being part of my family. We may have other issues but we’ve got good skin. BTW I also told my sister about my signing up for the company IRA, health insurance and life insurance. She was glad. When you get past the early romantic part of being in a family there are the practical issues of having savings, taking care of yourself, and being part of the whole that make your family bonds grow. They make you love your family all over again.
Some of my readers have wrinkles, others are probably in your 20s but all of us are from families. Within those families, it is almost certain there is a veteran within your generation or the previous. One of these days there is going to be a celebration of how veterans made war unnecessary. But until then there is Memorial Day. It is a time for Family, peace and hope. Celebrate as you see fit.
I swear that they are trying to put weight on my at work. Since it is the time to exchange presents and express our feelings, I should explain that the best thing I did was apply for and pass the certification test for peer support specialists in March. Soon afterwards a job fell into my lap and then another one. I looked at the pay stubs each time I received them and I almost could not believe it. If anyone tells you peer specialists are not in the profession just to get paid, tell them to try living on what I was paid for several years. Tell them to be one of those underemployed seeking full time work. I now earn enough to take care of myself which will include repaying old debts but that’s better than feeling ashamed to face people.
This is why we need to prioritize improved wages and benefits for peer support specialists. And we need to feel proud when we go to work and have respect from our co-workers like social workers, psychiatrists and others. And many of us who are working in the field are in situations with other mental health workers. I forgot nurses. It is a medical model whose culture we need to learn enough to be able to change it. If peers develop more supports through work and education then the model will need to adapt to meet their new and different needs.
There is room for peer run respite centers, too, just as Dryhootch America has carved a niche for itself with veterans. I am so busy it is hard to find time to do all the things I would like. I just hope there are others doing those things. The medical model has a lot of good things about it. I went to the VA this last week and found it was pleasantly efficient. I will need to pay off my copays or forget about my tax refund but that’s not bad. I felt listened to and entitled to help as a result of my service. I have heard that the VA is integrating new models of peer support. I got assistance signing up for something that will help put my VA health records at my fingertips. This was from a peer with a beard as long as Santa’s.
As I walked the hallways I found myself saying hello and being greeted. It felt different and wonderful. At times I have tried to ignore others as much as possible. But it’s time to open myself up to a new way of doing things and feeling hopeful. It’s time for certification to take root in my life. Have a happy holiday everyone.